Twenty-Four.

On August 13th, I turned 24. 
Usually people are excited about their birthdays, having surprised birthday parties thrown by friends & family, going to birthday dinners, or even to a club. Not me. I spent my birthday at home watching a movie & eating a pizza. The same ritual I do every week, (which is why I don't have the abs I want but that is a completely different story.)
I had plans to spend my birthday with someone special to me but life has a way of ruining your plans. I see it as ruining but it could be "not my path" to take at that time. I keep hearing that saying in my head. "Not my path." I've gone through a lot this past year with my relationship that I have had since I was sixteen years old. This person meant the world to me, my best friend. But as we got older, they were constant obstacles thrown at us. He was constantly away because he joined the military and left for war at the age of eighteen. From then on, he's been constantly overseas or in another state during our relationship. Before he deployed last summer, a lot of shit went down and it completely broke me down. Still, I chose to support him & spend time with him in Texas before he deployed for the next nine months. During the next nine months, we would talk everyday, all day until we fell asleep trying to work out the issues between us but it just was not the same as being in front of each other, communicating face to face. Which brought on a lot of mistrust and arguments. Though we would fight a lot, we made plans to move in with each other. At first I was okay with it, I really wanted it. I mean, it was what I have been waiting for but something inside me just was not feeling right.... I felt like I could not completely let go of my feelings that I have felt before he left. I could not trust him completely, I did not feel secure, like a change would be made for me to want to commit so heavily to a relationship that has not been so stable.
I told him how I felt, at the time he seemed to understand but as soon as he got home. And I do mean AS SOON as he touched down on U.S. ground, he betrayed my trust. I could not believe it. I was shell shocked on the way he was acting towards me. I mean, I was not completely innocent either but he was not open towards what I had to say to him. He just decided to walk away. Which hurt me.... I always stayed with him whenever he did mess up. I wanted to support him because that is what you do when you love someone. But I think his ego got in the way because he did not want to listen.
I say all this because I had so many plans for myself before I turned 24. I was supposed to be moved out, on my own. We were supposed to be living together, working together to be better together. I mean I waited for this. At 24, I expected to be much further in life than I am right now. I know, I know, I'm supposed to be grateful for everything that I have right now as I'm working towards my goals but it's still gets me down when I think about it. I'm in my mid twenties, at this age I am expected to be on my own, with a degree, and a job.... And right now I feel like I have to start from scratch in every aspect of my life. I reeeeeaaallly have to push harder now to even get to the same level as everyone else my age. Knowing this is suppose to inspire me but it sometimes scare me. Will ever be successful? I had big dreams for myself: working at Vogue, living in SOHO in a condo, having a car, graduated from college, traveling to Paris, London. I had big dreams. And I sometimes feel like it's never going to happen to me... and it's scary.
I guess the fall out of my relationship with someone so close to me has made me hesitant to commit to anything else because of the possibility of failure. But I KNOW I have to push passed it. There are things that I want for myself that only I can give myself.
I want to be fit (strong body & mind), a degree, good paying job, loving/honest partner.
And it all starts with me!
So if any of you guys are feeling like me, we are in this together!!! We have got to stay strong and keep going!!
This last year was horrible but I really got to make my 24th year better than ever. I have to reach my goals, & stay focused. 

Fur Keychains

These little fur key chains have been popping up on every stylish person I "know". (from social media) And I am completely obsessed with it. I want and NEED one, especially in black. Michael Kors seems so be the inspiration behind this fluffy accessory and I'm all for it. BUT! I can't really afford the price for the Michael Kors one so I'll settle for a knock off instead.

MICHAEL Michael Kors Fur Key Chain - $48

H&M Key Ring  - $5.99 

Finally!!!!

I've been having real "first world crisis"... finding the perfect foundation has been real struggle. I tried all of the drugstore (Revlon Colorstay, L'oreal True Match, Rimmel London, Cover Girl, etc.) I even went through all of the MAC foundations but NONE of them made my skin look flawless. I wanted FULL coverage, weightless foundation, that could last all day. And to find the perfect color was also a problem for me. The color would be either to orange or to ashy for my skin tone. I've been dancing around the idea of purchasing the NARS All Day Luminous foundation but I can not get over the price. $48 for a foundation??? I just couldn't see myself doing that. But one day walking around on 34th in NYC, after returning my MAC foundation at MACYS. I decided to walk across the street to Sephora. I made a B line straight to the NARS section. I couldn't resist the packaging and the way the bottle felt in my hand. I studied to shades before picking the one I thought would be for me. I then reached over to select "Tahoe" opened it and tried it on the jawline of my face. With to swipes, it disappeared into my skin like magic. And I thought "this is it!" and I hurried towards the cash register to purchase it. From that moment on, I have no regretted spending the $48 on this foundation. It is seriously the  BEST foundation I have ever tried. I really don't know why I was so hesitant before to buy it. Either way the money was well worth it. The color match? Perfect. Long lasting? Check. Full Coverage? Definitely! the only that's missing is a primer before you apply, it can settle into the fine lines after awhile but the pay off is great. I will definitely be purchasing this again.

xo

Look for Less - Aquazzura Amazon Lace Up Sandals

I am addicted to social media, following fashion bloggers and fashion Instagrams and it is really hard to not to notice the current obsession with lace up sandals. I have had my eye on the Aquazzura Amazon sandals but I am broke! LOL So I have done my research and found the PERFECT knock off for the right price. EGO.com has perfect designer inspired shoes for a great price.

EGO shoes (click here) 

Aquazzura Amazon lace up sandals (click here) 

ZARA shoe wishlist

I don't get to shop much since I'm "in between jobs" at the moment. BUT! I do keep my eye out on things that I would want to buy. ZARA has been killing it lately with the shoes. And do not get me started. When there's a sale going on, they sell out so quickly. I can not tell you how many times a pair of shoes would sell out as I'm adding the shoe to my cart to purchase. It's ridiculous! I would even get a size smaller just to see if it'll fit that's how bad I would want them. But it wouldn't work out because it would be to small. LOL

Anywho! Here are my ZARA shoe wishlist.

I NEED THEM BOTH! :P

I'm Back!

It has been a while since I've last posted (almost a year ago!) but life has completely taken me by surprise. There's been a lot of devastating things that has happened to be during this past year. But I have to keep remind myself that it could have been worse and things will eventually get better.

During this emotional process in my life, I have been focusing more on my fitness journey. In a way it's therapeutic to me because I know can control how my body will react, I have control of what I do. I know that was my problem when I was going through what I was going through. I wanted to stop it all but I had no control of it. It was already done. And it almost killed me. (emotionally) But as the saying goes, "what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger!"  And I have gotten stronger. My body was gotten way stronger, my endurance level has completely changed. It's great!

I'm also doing a new workout regime by Fitness Blender  and within 2 weeks I've lost 5-7 pounds, depending on the day. I feel more confident and more sure of myself. It's an 8 week program. I have about 6 more weeks to go. I can not wait to find out how much more weight I can lose with this. I have to admit, I have been cheating a few times on my "diet" but I'm only human. Though that is no excuse I need to be more disciplined if I want to lose this "emotional weight". That's what I'm calling it because I've turned to food to make myself "feel better". But we all know comfort food only makes it worse. Especially when you can't fit your skinny jeans anymore.

As I'm writing this post, I'm feeling a release, some sort of creative release from it all. I feel like this what I should be doing. I want to hopefully start posting more fashion posts featuring my style. I follow so many fashion bloggers and youtube vloggers I feel like this is what I should be doing.
And I can't wait to start ! 

Peep toe Leather

The weather here has been awful but that hasn't stopped me from thinking about the Spring/Summer weather that is right around the corner. I have been working out lately, so I haven't been really shopping for actually clothes. I am more into shoes at the moment, because you can't gain weight in your feet, lol. So yeah, I have been really into peeptoe shoes. I've been seeing it all over Instagram and Tumblr, and I love it! I can't get my hands on these shoes.

Get them here!

1. Leather High Heel Peep Toe Ankle Boot

2. Leather High Heel Sandal with Buckle 

Spring into Beauty

Since leaving my job, I have been really into watching beauty hauls and makeup tutorials on YouTube. I love watching the application of a new production, lipstick swatches, and perfect eye shadow blending. It's so fascinating. Makeup is truly an art, and it's an art that I enjoy. So, I thought it would be fitting if I put together a little Spring Beauty Wishlist. These are the products that I have been dying to try! I cant wait to get my hands on them.

1. Anastasia Brow Wiz 

2. Naked 3 Palette

3. Mac Studio Finish Concealer

4. Mac Studio Fix Fluid

5. Benefit Rockateur Blush

6. MAC Please Me Lipstick

7. Soap & Glory Sugar Crush Body Scrub

8. Real Techniques Makeup Brushes

9. Benefit Porefessional

Keeping up with Kimye

Everyone's buzzing over Kim Kardashian and Kanye West's Vogue cover. There are so many reactions to it. Some people hate it but there's also people that love it. And I LOVE IT! I can't get enough. It is so chic and ground breaking. The are the very FIRST interracial couple to be on the cover of Vogue. Kudos to them for doing that. I heard so many mean comments about how Kim Kardashian is not a style icon. Which is not true. She has influenced a lot of makeup and fashion trends. She made the contour and highlight popular. If you go on YouTube there are so many makeup tutorials after her. She IS pop culture. She has made history. Kim is not just known off of her infamous "sex tape" that everyone claims, she turned that negative into a positive. The Kardashian family has a successful tv show, clothing lines, perfumes, etc. The list goes on. Hate them or love them, you're always going to find yourself trying to keep up.

Night Owl. Early Bird

Today I woke up extra early. Around 8ish, which is early for me because I usually sleep in until 1-2pm in the afternoon. Plus, last I didn't go to sleep until 3:30am. But this morning, I kept tossing and turning to the point where I just couldn't sleep anymore. I got up out of bed to make myself some breakfast. A meal that I always seem to miss, and it was really good! :) 

Mind Your Mittens

Finally purchased a new nail polish from Essie. Winter is almost but it's from their Winter 2014 collection. It's a deep, double diamond black teal. A great alternative from the basic deep colors like "Wicked" and "Licorice" from Essie.

I love the way it looks against my skin tone. 

Oh Boy!

I am loving my new Chanel inspired bag. It is the perrrfect dupe for the Chanel Boy bag that everyone is raving about! Except  for the price tag, it actually really affordable. I purchased mine from (Daily Look). I wasn't really looking for a new bag but when I saw this I just HAD TO HAVE IT! It's a must have for every fashionista.

If you want to purchase it, click the link: here

Btw, if you're a new customer you get 20% OFF YOUR FIRST PURCHASE!

New In

Finally got my package today.. Well one of my packages. I have been checking the tracking updates all morning, and when I decided to check one more time it  said it was delivered. Which freaked me out a little because my mom just went downstairs and only my sisters' package was there. So naturally I thought someone has stolen it. But! I clicked another link, and it also stated that it was delivered to the "rear door". Our apartment has two doors , front and a back. I've never received a package from the back door so I wasn't looking at for it in that direction. When I opened the door I was so relieved to find out it was there.

I ordered sneakers from finish line. These have to be my second pair of REAL sneakers. My first pair were Air Force.. All white with a navy blue check. I took real good care of them... But I don't know where they went. We've moved so many times, you start to lose things on the way. But yea, anyway... I got these Nike Air Max Thea's from Finishline. They normally go for $89.99. But I searched for an online coupon code and I got them for $79.99. Annnd!!... It was free shipping. So I am completely satisfied.. They are a little tight, I guess it's because they're new. I'm planning on walking in them around the house to loosen them up a little. 

If you like what you see, click the link to buy them : (here)

-xo

Good Morning!

Good morning readers! I got up early today. No more sleeping in for me, before  it was hard for me to get on regular sleeping schedule. But now I'm fixed! Lol. So now I am currently waiting on two packages from UPS. Either today or tomorrow I'll post some pictures of what I got ^_^ !

-xo

Lacey

I am loving my new bralette/layering bra from Forever 21. The original price for it was $9.80 BUT! It's on sale RIGHT NOW for only $7.00. Click the link below to purchase it.

Buy it!

Pretty in Pink

A few days ago I received the H&M catalog for their new arrivals in the mail. And I came across this beautiful powder pink coat. It's so chic and on trend right now. I want it but I'm not sure if I should invest in it since I don't really own any "bright pastels". The majority of my wardrobe is black.. Well, my wardrobe IS black. I need to start branching out into new color palettes. Instead of the classic black & white.

I adore this coat! To purchase it click the link: here

Modern Cinderella

I have recently discovered Swedish designer Jennie-Ellen. And I am OBSESSED with the "Nail" shoes. They are so chic and different. Almost makes you feel like you're Cinderella with the glass slippers. The thing is, you're going to have to keep up your pedicure to rock these shoes. lol, but it's well worth it. I've seen so many Swedish bloggers wearing theses shoes. I wish I could get them in the states. They are beyond gorgeous! It's perfect the Spring/Summer season. I have been seeing a lot of all white outfits, light pastels. & This will complete any outfit perfectly. I need these shoes. ASAP!

If you're interested in purchasing them, click the link: here

A Step in the Right Direction

For quite some time now, I have been really trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. I'm 22, and most people I have gone to high school with has gone to and even graduated from college. Mean while, I was busting my ass working at dead end jobs for low pay. I have wasted quite some time at those jobs when I could have been doing something way more productive with my life. Time is so precious and it's all we have so I should have spent it more wisely. Now, I'm here... almost 6 years later... Working at a popular retail store at a mall. The pay is not good, I can get cut at a moments notice. They only reward you if they like you. Not because you work hard. I am not growing anymore in the position I am at. Sometimes, I feeling like walking in and giving them my two weeks notice. I am so over working there!!! I get so grieved and anxious whenever it's time for me to go to bed to wake up the next day for "work". I want to do MORE with my life but I don't know how or WHERE to start. I have applied to a popular fashion school in NYC to only be put on the waiting list.....

I don't know what else to do. I do know that I want to work in the fashion industry. But WHICH part?.. They creative side or the business side??... I DONT KNOW! And I have recently obsessed with so many fashion bloggers, I want to experiment with that side of it also, but I don't really have the money for it. My taste doesn't much up with my funds at the moment, since I barely work. Last week I got FOUR hours! I mean c'mon how do they expect ANYONE to live off of that??.. I'm just at a really low place in my life right now. I just need guidance.... I don't know where to start... I just need to take a step in the right direction..

H&M Wishlist

I am completely invested in H&M right now! I am loving basically everything I see on their website. So here are a few favorites I hope to own very soon ;)

1. (here)

2. (here)

3. (here)

4. (here)

H&M

Last week, H&M has their Winter Sale! It was dream. I literally wanted everything! But I couldn't :(  I did get two new things to add to my ever growing "collection". I love online shopping because other people haven't touched the clothes, tried it on, leaving their own personal "scent" on their. Ordering online, the clothes come in packages, plastic covering, like it was freshly made... Just for me, lol. So I always get excited whenever my package arrives on my door step. I have been ordering from H&M a lot lately. I feel like my style is evolving into more of a "grown up" appeal to it. I use to shop at Forever 21, I would SWEAR by it. But now, thing's have changed. Forever 21 is more like a "preteen/teen" environment. With the neon colors, & wild prints, weird graphic tees. I want more of a sophisticated look, like Zara, H&M, ASOS. But mostly H&M. Also! If you search good enough you can find coupon codes for shopping on their online website. It's so great. I love it!.
Last month I ordered a faux leather jacket that was originally priced at $49.95 for $20! Such a steal!! & I also ordered a 6-pack rings set for only $4.95. See, you don't have to spend a million dollars to look stylish.

I am currently waiting for my other package to arrive from H&M. Should be here by the end of this week, I ordered last week. That's another thing I like, their delivery service is really good. Does not take that long at all!